ADHD-Life

stop the test of Stattera.

Well if you want my advice about Strattera?
I will say DON’T USE IT!!!! DON’T TRY IT!!!

I have heard and read so many reactions from people.
Mostly all where VERY negative.

Strattera was not even made to be a ADHD med!

I’m not a doctor, so don’t take my word for it.
I’m ‘just’ somebody who was desperate and wanted to test anything as long as I would get some peace and rest etc. in my life.

Well thanks to God I do get some more peace in my life.
But not thanks to Strattera.
They have allowed it now also on the Swedish market, I don’t understand why?

( well I do, but if I would write down that they do it because of the big money there is to be made with Strattera, then I would suggest someting I can’t proof, so I better don’t claim that to be truth.)

The reason you see on all my Strattera testing posts you see the same date.
This is because I first had a blog at blogspirit. They suddenly decided to start asking money for their service.
That’s why I copy and pasted it all to here at blogger.

I will continue to write also about others ADHD aspects of life.
and about my experience with Cognitieve therapy.

So keep on coming back,even when I won’t write every day.

And ofcourse don’t forget to tell others!

Withdrawal effects daily Strattera testing

This terrible!

It’s not good, I feel really bad.

When I had decided to stop with Strattera, because of the bad side effects.
The nurse told me to go down to 40 mg ( was 80 mg a day) and then stop a week efter.

But when I came home I read the little papper that comes along with the medicine.
There it sad that you did not have to tap down.
You can just stop directly, without a problem.

So why would I take it slow if they write that you can just stop?

So I did, first I felt ok.
Then I started days later to get out of balans and dizzy and slowly also more heavy, I mean real heavy.
When I checked it out on internet I found out that you should not stop suddenly!
Not even if you parents say so.

So now I’m sitting here,feeling terrible, very tired, but no sleep.
Heavy, dizzy and crazy.
Why did I even start testing this product?

Day 33-39 on Strattera

How I feel

Well You all noticed that I have not been so faithful with my daily writing.
I haven’t been writing for 5 days now I think.
To be honest, I really didn’t feel like it.
Thanks to Strattera!
I felt terrible!

If you want my opinion on Strattera, Don’t use it! Don’t try it!

complains/side effects

I know I have been sounding very positive about Strattera in the beginning.
But more and more I started to realize that the irritation feelings became stronger.
Then when I talked with my wife about it, she couldn’t agree more.
I started to dislike myself more and more!
My wife could hardly say anything to me without getting ‘bad response’ from me.
Concentration is one of the many problems I have.
So many times when we are going somewhere with our car I drive wrong unless my wife tells me how
to go. But when she does that I get irritated, and respond not nice, like it is her fault that I can’t concentrate.
Concentration is just one of many problems.
Before I started with Strattera I had some very bad days.
Then it would be better for me and my loved ones to be alone.
But now thanks to Strattera I feel like I have only bad days!
Especially the last 2 weeks it was getting worse!

Sometimes I totally freaked out without any reason.
I could be sitting on a couch and become angry, just suddenly without any reason.
I could suddenly really flip out, freak out or however you want to call it.
Most times it happened when I was alone, so that was good.

But the worse moment I experienced was with Easter.
We where going to eat dinner at my mother in law.
She is a fantastic, sweet and very smart woman.
Not only that, but she is also a great cook, so I’m always happy to go to her!
But with Easter I went to the woods right before I was going to her.
I went into the woods and went crazy.
I really had to keep on talking to myself that I was ok.
That I am not crazy and that it probably was an side effect of Strattera.
I started to cry, became very emotional etc.

My dog came to me with a ball he found.
That helped because I could focus on playing with my dog.
and slowly I get out of that feeling.
It was a very scary experience.
After that I have been thinking about the research I had done before I started with Strattera.
That so many people in America, I think it was more then 300 killed themselves.
And if I understood it correctly it was also proven that it was connected with the use of Strattera.

Here in Sweden they are testing it now on about 600 people.
It is only available via a special license, well if it is up to me I hope they will not
be allowed to put it on the market here.
I was one of those 600 people and as far as I understood, no people here in Sweden
had any good results. I base that on reading and responses I heard and got.
So I don’t claim this as being a fact. All in my blog is my opinion, not facts.
I’m not a specialist, I’m not a doctor.
But I am a smart guy with user experience in the field ADHD and medicine.
I have tried Effexor, Ritalin, concerta, Metamine, in English known as dextro amphetamine
and I probably forget to mention a few. Nothing worked.
And all medicine have side effects. now I have been reading also reports on the effect of
the use of Ritalin and other stimulants on children. I don’t remember where I read it.
It’s also not so easy to find critical reports from experts, and I wonder if they, I mean the medicine industry,
is trying to keep those reports away from the public?

I know I sound totally different now then when I started with testing Strattera.
Of course I sound different! I was hoping Strattera was going to work for me.
My life is a life of allot of stress, troubles, confrontations etc.
I’m tired of living the life I do, well that doesn’t sound right.
I’m not tired of life, but I want to live a normal life!
I want to be able to give love to my wife whom I love more then anything else in this world.
I want to be able to enjoy life without stress and chaos.

People outside on the street probably don’t see that I have such a big problem.
After all I have my own company, I have a company together with my wife.
I also work on a normal job fulltime.
We live close to nature and have fantastic animals.
I have family, and also a very nice family in law.
A car, a moped, a bike. I’m not bound to a wheelchair or anything.
So everything is ok right?

I know I should be thankful for all of that.
I don’t know how to explain what the problem is, but maybe you get a little idea of how the life of someone with ADHD is (and how hard it is for the partners of some one with ADHD) if you read the posting about the start of my day. Then you might get a little better understanding. This story does not have a happy ending.
Well not yet anyway. It’s just a start to a new adventure, now without medicine.

I’m a Christian, I believe in God. Maybe I have been putting my hope to much on medicine instead of Him.

I will keep on writing this week about the last days of testing Strattera.
I went down from 80 mg to 40 mg. after that I will continue to write, although maybe not daily
about ADHD in my life. So keep on reading

Day 132 & 33 on Strattera

How I feel

Very tired, really extreme for a few days now.
It’s so terrible to be tired all the time.
But lately it’s more extreme again.

And also fustrated because I had to write this posting again and again……

Complains/ side effects

The usual, dry mouth, tiredness, toiletgoing problems etc.

ADHD effects

Also the usual ones.
At getting a little boring to write the same everyday.
I’m going to bed soon,zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Theo

Day 29 on Strattera

How I feel

VERY, VERY frustrated!

Yes Strattera works, because I don’t have this hunted and rush feelings anymore.
But it’s not enough!
The irritation feelings are still very strong present.
And not just some days, it feels lately almost daily.
How do I know?
Well be around me for 24 hours and you know, ask my wife.
Really I can joke about it but it’s so frustrated!
Today for example, we where in a supermarket.
My wife was already standing in a line to pay the stuff we did buy.
A man came and stood behind her in the line.
Then I came and sad: excuse me, to the man and passed him.
So far so good, but then he told me he was first.
I told him in Swedish, that’s where I live, that I was with her, the woman in front of him.
He probably didn’t understand my Swedish and took me by my arm
and try to push me back.
I exploded and told him clearly , well loud is a better word, to get lost.
The problem was only that I sad it in Dutch, but he understood that he made me VERY angry.
Right away he went to another line and waited there instead for his turn.
Luckily, because the security guard also cam to check out what the problem was.
But he was not needed.

It’s such a stupid moment, that I felt right away so bad about.
Most of all because I embarrassed my wife in front of others.
And it happens so many times.
I get so tired and frustrated with myself.
There is nothing worse then hurting the ones you love!
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I do know that something has to change.

Complains/side effects.

The same as the last days.
The exploding and irritating feelings are part of the ADHD.
That’s not a complain caused by Strattera.

ADHD effects

Also the same as written before.
Nothing new, so why repeat right?

It’s late and I got to get up early, so I better stop and get some sleep.